Sunday, March 30, 20081:42 AM
As usual, my nose is giving me problems again. It goes all stuffy like some dumbass shoved a whole chunk of cotton candy up my nose, and i hate it because I cant breath, even through my mouth. I've been rubbing my nose so often it feels like it's going to drop off any moment and I think it's bleeding on the inside anyway.
Hooray, getting my turf shoes next week. It's black and white and Nike. Oh dear. It's Nike. I wished it was Adidas.
My tamagotchi looks like me, I swear!
Orange M&Ms
Tuesday, March 25, 20088:47 PM
Monday, March 24, 20086:34 PM
Hockey training on Saturday after a lazy friday, which i spent camping infront of the computer doing the stupid PI for PW, but nooooooooooo, that's not the exciting thing. WENT SHOPPING WITH BELLE after training, reliving our lost childhood.
I WANT MY OWN TAMAGOTCHI PLEASE!.
Toys R Us is having offer, buy 1 get 1 free, I wanted to buy, but the colours are U-G-L-Y with a capital U.
Thursday, March 20, 200811:51 PM
School life is just like that oldie song, Torn Between 2 Lovers. On one hand, I'm loving school so much, yet on the other I just want to throw everything down and just escape from school, I want to run away from Innova so badly.
Spinning memories
Tuesday, March 18, 20088:43 PM
The locking of my blog yesterday was so totally uncalled for. All it did was to make my bestest friend worried about me. You know who you are, and I know you're probably the only one who reads my blog frequently. I just want to say how terribly much I love you, for always being there for me, and cheering me up all the time. I miss talking to you, and telling you about my eyecandies and stuff. It's so sad that JC life is such a killer we cant catch up with one another as much as I would like.
It seems everyone around me have been rather down recently, I guess it's all due to the period of adjustments and having to settle down into our own zone of comfort. Read Yichan's blog, saw something that she quoted off her friend's blog which i found very meaningful.
...But if we think about it, most, if not all such personal struggles ultimately end up moot, and when we finally bow down, we laugh at ourselves for putting up such a hard fight and still losing. But i guess thats where the fun lies, fighting for all that we believe in, no matter how insignificant.
I mean, at our level, we're not really fighting for world peace or anything as grand as that. We're fighting our own personal battles. Maybe we're unhappy with the way things are being run at school, or maybe we dont like how our friends are changing, or maybe even we dont like how ourselves are changing.
And with such premises, we fight.
And odds are, we'll lose.
Simply cause, somethings just cannot be helped and the only thing we can do is try our hardest and hope for the best.
It's probably time that I stop wallowing in self-pity. Afterall, I shouldnt care what others think of me. Life is never fair no matter how much we want it to be, and I should start to cultivate a positive attitude towards life and not feel that the world is in emotional debt to me. As the saying goes, fighting doesnt cure the root of the problem, so I should just accept whatever that life throws towards me and deal with it. The earth is not going to stop spinning to accomodate me and my whims.
I was so sad yesterday, I had my own happiness-booster therapy session and for the second time in my life, it failed. Sleep wasnt enough to kill my sadness, such that it poured over to today. I started wishing for the simpler things in life and my childhood days when everything wasnt as complicated. I couldnt help myself and had to repeatedly tell Joel how much I wanted to have another chalet, how much I wanted more bowling and pool sessions just because I missed the times we had together.
I'm not as eloquent as Yichan's friend,
but that was the time I enjoyed myself the most simply because we did not judge each other and accepted everyone at their true face values, for that's when we know we are accepted for who we truely are, and not who we want to be. Childhood, when diplomacy and understanding has yet to set in, that is the purest state we can be in, and thus is the reason why many yearns for their childhood memories.
The post which I wrote yesterday at the peak of my unhappiness will neither be deleted nor posted, for it'll remain there to act as a reminder that life will only improve when I finally believe in it. To those who visited my blog during the period of my lockdown, I hope you enjoyed playing Neopets, and travel back to many of your childhood days.
The complexity of life
Sunday, March 16, 20082:08 PM
BACK FROM HOCKEY CAMP!
Urgh, physical training was tough and grueling, but somehow I didnt give up at all. =D Hockey camp was fun, fun, fun! Played with my fellow J1 girls, becoming camera whores, did stupid nonsense, had the best time, just like the fun people we are. Induction was fun; I broke a doorstopper, and almost kick someone in the face. The weather sucks, raining, raining, raining non-stop. NO HEATER IN THE SHOWERS! Bloody cold wind blowing all the time, and we had to bathe in the cold freezing water that had earthworms. Got my hypernova jerseys, and multiple scratches on my stick. Laughed at our nerdy self, after we changed to specs. Staying up to watch the clock switch off, chasing after Elia for pictures.
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Break camp, bathe in the freezing shower, change to uniform and went for econs lecture. Fell asleep 20mins into the lecture, head nodding off. Janelle and me were like ophans; cold, hungry and tired. Heard the heartbreaking news; almost cried. Met up with the rest at Causeway Point for lunch, chat, gossip and being the good senior I am, dragged myself to HQ to help with training. Forgot the way there, climbed the overhead bridge with agony..jpg)
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Slept for 14 hours, had lunch, and sleep again. BBQ outing with Tarpuntay 01! Ate and ate and ate, I think I will get cancer soon. Giving Amanda's dog a massage, played with ZiYing's guitar, made friends with Amanda's little bro, joke that Mas Selamat's my heart desire, reached home close to midnight.
Giving it all up
Tuesday, March 11, 200812:22 PM
What's new may not be the best; strange and foreign. It's only when it's old and worn,then it is at it's best comfort.
Hockey camp tommorrow! Feels wierd not having a checklist, I cant decide what to bring.
Inertia
Saturday, March 08, 200810:17 PM
SO, it has been a looooooooong week this week. And I'm finally back. It's kind of comforting to know that I have friends who really care much about me: to those who attempted to comfort me, I really love you guys a lot. Even though the matter has yet to be solve, but I'm feeling so much more better now; I've even been blogging the past few days which I locked my blog. Life in IJC is ever so busy, I've been taking many pictures recently!
